Emotional me

Last night I was so upset. It seemed like I had so much to do and no time to do it in. I was making my moms birthday cake and trying to make dinner at the same time. I just started crying. I feel so miserable all the time and it is getting hard and uncomfortable for me. I also had to go and make another doctors appointment yesterday. I went there and he gave me more meds to try and get rid of this sinus infection that I have had for three months now. He said that I have chronic sinusitis which means he has referred me to and Ent Dr. I have and appointment with this Dr on March 18th. It turns out to be the same Dr I took Ben to when he broke his nose and he is also my Ob's Dr so I know he is a good doctor. My ob said they might have to do a ct scan to see if I have blocked sinuses and that might just require surgery after I deliver. So with all this news I was very sad and emotional and I could not help but cry. Every pregnancy has had problems for me. They are worth it in the end however it is sometimes hard to think of the end result when you are so miserable for so long. I am always out or breath even for doing the smallest thing like walking around in a store and the Dr told me it is because I can not breath in the first place. I feel as if I have not slept in months during the night. Maybe God is preparing me for another baby like Ben. I sure hope not! I can not breath during the night so I have to try and get used to breathing through my mouth but when I do my throat gets so sore and hurts so I cannot sleep then either. I don't have any idea how Ken sleeps breathing through his mouth it is amazing to me. Hopefully this new meds will help because my nose is so sore from blowing it is always cracking open and bleeding. God surely was not lying in the Bible when he said child bearing was going to be hard after Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit. Hopefully it will go away soon. I really don't know how much more I will be able to handle.